Lots of tears.

We got through two days of preschool with no tears.  I did not expect Olivia to let me go on either day but she did very well.

Today was different.  I tried to do all the right things before I left and warn her that it would time for me to leave soon.  She would not let me go.  The assistant picked her up and carried her away, all the while I'm thinking surely it doesn't have to be this way, I could stay and leave when she's more settled.

Olivia screamed.

I had no idea of the horrible feeling you have when you leave a screaming child at preschool.  My heart is aching.  I feel like I just want to go back and get her but I know it wont help.  It doesn't help that it's her birthday today and I would have really preferred to spend the day with her anyway.

Olivia saw me at the gate and apparently kept breaking free and running to the gate.

Olivia is very stubborn.  No amount of coaxing or bribing will get her to give in.

I rang the school and gave them some tips.  She's best left alone, even ignored, and she will slowly, very slowly, join the group on her own.

It gives me a bit of comfort knowing that her cousin is there with her.  I also told the school Hannah may be able to come down in her playtime and help settle her but I don't know if that may make things worse.

I will ring the school again in about 30 min and then hopefully be able to set my mind on some lovely things such as making this cake.  I bought this cupcake stand especially for it!

I hope my icing comes out nice and glossy like that!

Happy Birthday my big 4 year old!